No Show!

I called in and cancelled my assignment at about 3:30 AM this morning. This isn't the first time that this has happened this year, but I have this feeling of dread and worry that come over me. I had said that I was a little bit worried because I was going to be at a new school, but starting at about 11:00-Midnight I started having this feeling of something bad happening. The feeling was completely non-specific.

I'm not even sure if this feeling had anything to do with teaching or not. Its weird you want to feel like you can trust your own gut, but part of me wonders if I really should be trusting it.

Instead I laid in bed till 12:45, went for a walk, and basically accomplished nothing for the day. So this cycle will repeat itself. I have another substitute assignment scheduled for tomorrow, and now I will feel like I will have to go since I haven't made enough money this week. And I can already feel the dread coming on about tomorrow, I actually have a special education substitute teaching assignment tomorrow. I still don't know why I accepted it---maybe because nothing else was being offered a few weeks ago.

Time for me to chill!